"i'll always love you though, new york"--ryan adams

so this is it, my last night in new york....

also, my last entry in this blog...it's been a good 3 months, don'tcha think? i guess you can just look back...seems liek just yesterday i was walking into rockefeller center, getting my name badge, discovering the pizza place next door and getting run over by people walking to work...oh no, not anymore...i walk in, scan my badge like a pro, know some of the best food places around and run over tourists myself...*sigh* am i a new yorker now? no...definately a texas girl forever..:)

i will miss it here, somewhat. the fast pace is sort of cool, but when i just feel like strolling or i'm stressed out, i just want everything to stop, it would be nice to have a quiet corner somewhere...i love central and riverside park. i love the empire state building...lit up in all different colors at night...i love pizza, and i love chinatown, SoHo and Connolley's spinach dip! I'll miss running to the Times Square Deli for a quick soda or bag of chips. I'll miss running next door to get pizza for $2 when money was tight a certain week. I'll miss running to mcdonald's with the "fam" when we thought there was nothing else to eat! I'll miss the late movie nights, the laughing at everyone's goofy jokes....I'll miss traci's love for lip gloss, kenzie's love for firemen, and both of their loves for magnolia cupcakes. I'll miss amanda's sweet smile, whitney's love for saturday afternoon football, the small bursts of laughter shared between me and allison, jenni's knowledge of creepy boys and sharing the fear of our future together, wiggins' knowledge, hawkins' teasing of my minority culture, caleb's sprite and saltines' trip, le's calmness even when she is sooo stressed out, blitch's napoleon dynamite speeches, and monopoly games, and gulley's hugs....wow...so i guess that made me a small bit sentimental...

Well, the bottom line is that I've had a great time here, and made some great friends, some i wish i met sooner, but that's ok, i'm sure we have plenty of time to be friends :) After karoaking, there are so many songs that will remind me of this group and this time in my life...

Kids, I've had the time of my life.

I leave you with some pictures we took today at the Rockefeller Tree:)



kenzie, me and jenni in front of the angels



the angels and snowflakes



me and jenni in front of the tree



the beautiful, sparkly christmas tree in front of my building!! rockefeller center!!

"We said goodbye to a dear old friend,
And we packed our bags and left, feeling sad,
It's the only way,
We said hello as we turned the key,
A new roof over our heads,
Gave a smile,
It's the only way,
Only way

Turn your head,
And don't look back,
Set your sails for a new horizon,
Don't turn around, don't look down,
Oh there's life across the tracks,
And you know it's really not surprising,
It gets better when you get there"
--hello, goodbye --phil collins

"at night, i think of you, i want, to be your lady baby..."--ghost town djs

well i wish yesterday was a better day, but oh well
i woke up and went with jenni, kenzie and traci to the MoMa in the RAIN and of course the new york sky decided that yesterday it would let out texas rain style, so we were standing in line outside in the cold, and RAIN! ick. so we walked arond there for awhile, it was pretty cool, just wish i wasn't so stressed about the final and writing this last take home essay..

jenni and i went to hale and hearty soups, which is good b/c i've always wanted to go and i finally did, they have liek 50 choices of soups, it's amazing! anyways, came home, ate, wrote the essay, started studying, started freakin out, then went to take the final, with headache and all... (b/c by now i'm feeling pretty crummy)

the final wasn't nearly as bad as i thought and i think i got soem bonus points which will help out, and then i realized HELLOOO this is my last final EVER!!! how awesoem is THAT!? but i felt soooo sick, it wasn't fun. i came back upstairs, and took a nap, then everyone woke me up to go out to karoake, luckily my headache had pretty much disappeared...so we headed down there, it was fun. i had lost my voice pretty much so there was no singing for me, but i danced and enjoyed myself, and around 1245, i started feeling HORRIBLE again...eh...didnt' enjoy that..so i came home with caleb, aleen and steph-ho, and caleb went to get me some crackers and sprite and i crashed..

today i feel better, still have a cough and my voice is starting to come back i think...anyways, i'm about to do my internship journals and shower and maybe eat with jenni and maybe go to chinatown. last minute gifts.

anyways
peace out
home TOMORROW!!!!

"do you need me, like i need you, or am i standing still?"--jewel

hiiiiiii

so there's not really anything that happened today..i ate a lot of fast food...le ended up sleeping in my room last night b/c my roommate's gone and she was up late doing her paper in here, after almost burning down the building...awesome...anyways, i woke up and was going to study but ended up looking for jobs, and i found 4 decent ones, 3 in dallas and one in austin..so we'll see...all differnt sorts of media planning or something along those lines. pray for that!

i ate a lot of fast food! mmmmmm...i can feel the clogged arteries now...anyways, mark and i did some of the review for the final while le worked on her paper and before i knew it, it was class time!! eeeeeee, my last paper ever was turned in!! yay! and i got my final back and got a 90! so that was awesome!

anyways, it's already 1115pm, and the christmas tree was finally lit in rockefeller so we're gonna head down there around 1230 and chekc it out...take soem pictures , but it was sprinkling earlier so i hope it doesn't rain while we're there...hopefully the crowd has died down.

anyways, i need to study...gotta get to the MoMa early tomorrow...eek, my last final ever!

peace out

"and it feels like home, and it feels always, and it feels like coming home"--shawn colvin

hey hey
i know all of y'all thought i had left and gone for good, but no worries. just been in texas for the past week...

so i spent this past weekend half in austin and san antonio..i got kind of sick on friday, (i know my immune system stayed up for the entire 3 months in new york, but once i got around my family, i finally hit rock bottom and acquired an incredibly sore throat within a 1 1/2 hour drive from dallas to waco) anyways, i had dinner with my dad and then went to have coffee (cider) with bundy which was great. i was so glad to see a friendly face :) came home, tried to stay up to watch colin farrell on conan but i couldn't because i'd just drank about a gallon of nyquil...needless to say, i felt much better on saturday and my mom and i left to san antonio and i saw so many cousins and family members, it was way fun...not to mention we went to patty's and i had mexican food!!!!!!!!! i even ate some of erica's...lol..i had been deprived...so i saw a lot of family and got to play a lot with candy (my fav. niece ;)) anyways...sunday we came back to austin and i just chilled out, got my pictures developed, and half packed, hung some of my clothes up, put together graduation invitations and watched "love actually"

so i bought this book called "quarterlife crisis", about the time of transition b/w graduation and the next part of your life, and it's not really uplifting or anything or has any wonderful words of wisdom, but it's nice to know that people go through the same sort of ups/downs and depressions that i am going through right now...makes me feel more normal i guess...

anyways, i'm back in new york...it only took me like 2 1/2 hours to get to the lambs but WHATEVER, stupid super shuttle, that's the last time i TAKE YOU! actually, they're really good at picking you up for your flight, but not for going to the airport to wherever your destination is. then i went to blitch and le to mcdonalds for a "family" dinner..lol. i haven't eaten fast food since i've left here, so it was alright.

i'm glad i finished my paper this week b/c i'm really tired and i still am not 100% better..tomorrow i'm devoting to studying for my VERY LAST FINAL EVER! and then turning in my paper and going to the christmas tree lighting in rockefeller center.

anyways, my room is already half empty it's kind of weird.

i had really mixed feelings flying into la guardia tonight, the city is lit up liek a freakin' christmas tree from up in the sky...and it's amazing...then i got to baggage claim and everyone looks pissed off and then while drivin around the upper west and east sides, i rememebered why i didn't really like it here

anyways peace out...

ps. ellen had colin farrell on this morning while i was packing ...sorry andy...i was really excited to watch that. you know...line dancing is kinda cool

4 days until i'm back in texas for good
19 days until graduation...wow

"and wouldn't it be nice to live together in the kind of world where we belong"--the beach boys

where is my home and what have you done with it exactly?

besides the fact that i had oh so much fun in waco with my andy....:)

i'm at my brother's house right now, in the "private suite" aka, my nephew's room..my sister and her 2 kids will be here in less than an hour i'm sure, and i'm trying to enjoy the quiet time i have left, seeing that by thursday (yes tomorrow) there will be at least 10-11 people in this 3bedroom/2 bathroom house...awesome

besides that, i left my car in waco, my house in austin is now not only having the floor torn up for new tile and wood floors, but now because of some nasty animal in our pipes, the whole house has been flooded over by a sewer system...dont' ask me how, i don't know, i don't even want to know...all i know is that instead of seeing the 'retns today i won't see them tomorrow and thta's not any fun...soo..basically my house is on the edge of destruction...

also, brian emailed me back, basically my screenplay sucks, so that's awesome...also i have to re write my paper (awesome) and do my study sheet for art and the moving image final...awesome, oh yeah and the moma when i get back, and oh yeah, FIND A FREAKIN JOB!

*sigh*...i'm sleepy

good news? my brother's wireless is amazing! yessssssssss

peace out.
and happy early turkey day

"is this the place i've been dreaming of?"--keane

so i feel like i have legitimate reasons to update today, seeing as it's thursday and i haven't written for a few days and most of my stuff is out of the way...
all i have left to do is pack all of my room into 2 suitcases and write down some quotes for my next paper because at 4pm today i finished my 1st one!! yesssss...

so even though it's almost 5, i am going to take a quick break to reward myself...

this week has been very stressful although once we got an extension on our papers and the final wasn't as deathly as i thought, i was very very relieved. so tuesday after the final, we took a small break, but i stll wanted to work some, so i did on my script...anyways, wednesday rolled around and after a looong class and review session, i finally buckled down and researched a bunch of quotes and stuff...which was very helpful today when i went to work, and didn't do much but send out licenses and worked on my paper all day.

what a bittersweet week it's been. i was happy it was my last day of work, but sad to leave my bosses and think that was the last time i woudl walk through that elevator lobby :( *sigh*...anyways, enough is enough, they were sweet and gave me a small going away gift..awww...also i had my last class EVER of college last night, wow...and i am 1 paper, 1 final and 1 month away from graduating! that is soooo crazy!

anyways, i'm goign to chill out for a few minutes and then start packing, then probably eat, want to go to virgin megastore and buy a few movies ,then come back to start researching for my next paper ..aaargh...i am SOOO almost done AND i'll be in texas by this time tomorrow!!!

1 day until home
15 days until home for GOOD
30 days until graduation...wow

"she just goes stumbling through her memories, staring out onto grey street"--dave matthews band

i am too tired to blog
here is what you need to know, dont' be scared if i dont' update, i am just stressed out because i have 40,000 things to do before i leave ON FRIDAY! :)
but booo for papers and screenplays and finals and even shopping...what happenend to my time??

lunch tomorrow with the bosses, and more and more studying, final @ 7pm, and paper writing, plus buying eyeliner at sephora (hey, some things just have to be done)

sooo freakin' tired...

peace..o...u...t